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I am not use to relaxation. 

Never! 

So, long holiday sucks!

I was desperately seeking for stuff to do. Well, i am doing some tutoring now, to help out a UPSR gal... but there is only one gal...and she came to me. Gosh... please another week, and i'll be heading back to UKM for the function. A busy line up of practices and rehearsal will be available and i'll sing on stage again. Can't wait~ should start practicing by now...

and damn it, i gained weight... OMGawd... not now...i can't fit perfectly into my Nicole's sparkling blouse le

ARGHHH.... 

told you, holiday brings no benefit. Long draggy one especially....

Then something pops up. It has been quite sometime i abandoned my work in making bookmark. Hence, almost immediately, i took out all my stuff and start designing...

my latest design...kolaj technique

i took advantage of old photograph film and try to make sumthing outta em

skill baby, skill.... haha....bragger i am, sue me

the right one looks amazing....it was made of craps i made but it turns out to be wonder

if you wanna look at my old works and perhaps my fashion design, do check it out at my FB album

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PT 30 VCD

I finally watched the Pesta Tanglung VCD! LOL... i bought it for quite some time but i was very reluctant to watch it. That day, i was helplessly bored and i was dying to do something and i thought of that VCD.

WOW!!!

The videographer SUCKS man!!!

Many fantastic choreographies missed and he definitely forgotten that in musical stage act, dancers play an equal part as the actors. We are not the backdrops of the stage that came out to beautify the stage. All the dances involved the whole stage. Every space was fully used and it means there are dancers dancing there. Sigh! Some close up was not appropriate but seriously better than the first VCD of PT29 i got. I had few close up shots....fhew... no mistakes spotted! But i don’t remember making much mistake either. That was a huge relieve.

Well, although i am physically well trained with tremendous improvement, i am still good in forgetting steps. I can easily be distracted when i am emotionally disturbed and i did not control my bad daily habits and allow the overwhelming fatigue took me over. When i lost focus, that was the time my name echoed at the Pusanika hall. Sigh!

Anyway, although there are many painful sights in some dances and i did contribute minor effect in it, but overall, it was really a cool performance. Despite a terrible final rehearsal we had, the hardest night for everybody where we all left the hall crying, we bounced back and gave a fantastic turn over on the performance night.

I guess the long wait to finally watch the VCD was because i fear the recorded performance will not be as beautiful as the memories i had in mind. I fear it would spoil my own distinction i gave myself. That VCD brings back tons of flashbacks and im lovin all bits of em.

That was my priority in 1st semester in 2nd year in UKM. 2nd year has been amazing. In my 2nd semester, i was selected to sing for NTLP 13. I had a nice song and it was my 1st song. A song i owned. Another bunch of great friends i made and very wonderful experiences and trainings. NTLP is one stop for a musical learning. I was able to explore myself, my range, my skill and capabilities and my strong point, showmanship. 

I had set my feet in the grand DECTAR stage with opportunities to perform and shines in all the semesters. Still, i am not satisfied with myself as a performer as i haven’t been able to deliver all out. First year in UKM was a year of introduction to the clubs, the stage. The birth of my performance life, officially. Second year was a learning year where i was given bigger roles and much higher dependability to perform. I will again perform in another brand new function for me, called Archustic which is a function of the architecture faculty this third sem. I will be delivering a new song. This function take me to another notch where i already had my voice recorded in studio and will be featured in the Archustic album. My very second song!

3rd year approaching and i wanted nothing but to be the best of me. I will definitely go for another round of PT dancing and i will return for New Tune if they still need me as singer. Or else, i will join the dancers there. This year, it will be the year of appreciating. I wanted it to be as glorious and glamorous as it could be. I wanna live up to my own expectation, to shine on stage. I thirst for attention and acknowledgement, i yearn for genuine compliments and sincere helps from professionals. Yes you, the professionals, my beloved friends out there. You guys are my source of inspiration and driving force. Without your support, i am nothing. In fact, I won’t be able to come from my shell at all.

For that, I thank you all earnestly from the bottom of my heart.

JCDAGREAT loves you dearly.

JCDAGREAT

Whenever i face sadness, i would want someone to take my ring off...

But that someone never existed...

People thought i am popular....

That i must have that someone to share my all with...

I thought the same too...

I met and befriended so many wonderful peoples...

But just never that person...

He felt so very surreal, distanced....

I don't know him anymore, or do i ever know him??

I never meet him or do i ever??

Probably wishing the wrong thing at the wrong time is a mistake....

That's the reason why i am not granted my wish...

What a sinner i am to wanting n yearning someone to love and protect me when i am in need

When i am in dilemma 

When i am in critical mental disturbance...

But when i survive another battle alive with still very much kept sanity...

My ring got tighten... 

My mind got clearer...

My heart got emptier...

I don't long and pray for salvation

No angel, no miracle, no GOD

No nothing but 

JCDAGREAT

The arrogant

The almighty

The loud and superior....

Confidence and my talents became my shell... 

My sword and my bullets...

A driving force to keep myself moving,

Striking for my lust of glorious achievements...possibly, happiness and peacefulness

To make amen for my patience, tolerance, and understanding that i had sacrificed.

For that, i do not want to take off my ring...

I do not wish you to come to live...

I do not want you to weaken me, to dampen my spirit and my ever strong sensibility...

Until the day i am tough enough to conquer my sin, the day when i should let go of this ring... 

Till then, 

Let's just hiao =)))

A wonderful week

Well, it all started during the middle of the semester. Whenever i saw audition flyers or pamphlets, i’ll be ever delighted. That day was another day i saw the audition for a function called ARCHUSTIC. What drew my attention was it composed of singing, dancing activities and also my senior, Soo Yung. He will be the one who incharge of this program. Hence, i messaged him for confirmation. That period, i was still busy with NTLP and also studies. On the1st day of audition, i was coming from outside the UKM and it was quite late already. Reluctance set in as there were quite a lot of people too. It was my 1^st visit to Kejut/Architect faculty and i had some issues finding the exact audition room. There, due to nervousness, i murdered 2 songs and did a hilarious aka humiliate dancing...human pool dancing to be precise! haha. To me, with my experiences, that day act was totally disastrous. But somehow they wanted me and so, i am in.

I finally got some information about the function but it was during the final examination period. Hence, i missed the first briefing. I was told to stay back after the final for about another week. After breaking free from the end of 2^nd year, 2^nd sem, i was totally free from all responsibilities and be committed to this function. On the 1^st day, the progress was a bit slow. But it was nice to be introduced to all the other musicians and singers. I am really lucky to have few New Tune friends with me. I was selected to the song “Storms in universe” and i do love this song. i love the saxophone melody more than any others. The few song composed by my senior are very fine too but i often have no luck with his song. 

LOL

 my composer

I have lotsa fun with them. Outta the blues, i was introduce to one genius who happened to be one of the senior in chacha dancing. I was surprise by his present and seeing his serious face. But that face didn’t last as very soon we all lost the strangers tension and ease up pretty fast. He is the funniest guy i ever met. SERIOUSLY!!! That fella.... omigosh.... i must admit i am slightly attracted to his charms. But sadly this guy aka the UKMpella’s sifu is going to Bintulu as he was promoted to be the head of the company’s franchise. May he be happy with his job there and still stay connected with us in UKM. 

 sifu

This whole week, especially when the night falls, we will jam songs and plays in the DECTAR hall. With the grand piano, 2 guitars, 3 damn cool pianist, 3 singers, 1 multi talented but know sikit sikit in all fields...the angel, the song composer...we formed the band UKMpella. Since all of us have the same but different level of musical root, we have each other to depend on when we try on many songs especially “stand by me” in acapella. As a first try out, a product of a night, it was consider very well constructed. 

It’s a week of musical knowledge, and chances for me to explore my own skill, vocal range and genre of music. I love the feeling of singing by the piano. I like the fact that i am capable of tackling diva’s songs. I enjoy playing choir along with my friends and harmonizing. I am delighted to know many music lovers too despite them being non-chinese. Music does not recognise skin colour and races. Music knows nothing but talents and passion.

 jamming

 the Indonesian gals

First time in studio recording was truly an exciting try out. I was kinda nervous and was exhausted for not sleeping early the night before. That night I was with my fellows singing at the beach cafe. We were auditioning aka performing....basically having fun. Another great moment with them. I only manage to sing one song....Angel, Jessica Simpson’s version. Due to none practice between me n my pianist, i dun dare a second try out.

at beach cafe

my gal

You guys are really great and impressive jamming partners. I am not at all hesitated to loosen up my tenseness and enjoy the whole process 100%. Some crappy stuff i did and said... haha... it was consider pretty fast that you guys could witness it in such short period of time jamming together. All those loud laughing....shirt pulling the guys kena teruk wei...erm...off shoulder la...then the cat fights... miaowwwwzz.... gosh. Shame a~ haha...

I wish you guys have as much fun as i do. Hey...we are fast becoming the GLEEK... haha...pls watch Glee and you’ll know what i’m sayin. Couldn’t have enough of u all...one week is too short. Shall meet up soon on the 6^th june. I am waiting!!!

 i really love singing =)

archustic jamming

LOL

I sang 'Storm in universe' to the composer and musician this afternoon. It's more like a simple audition to see if the composer like my voice and whether it suited the song or not. When i first heard this song, i felt like the song was a little bit weird. I don't really understand the lyrics and the story of the song. But when i tried listen again and once i started to sing, the feel came. It was as though a song i heard in the radio... from an album. I can totally feel the groove and ideas came on how i should sing and what sorta style i want.

I was a bit nervous when i was told to do a small audition to the original singer cum composer. But he seemed friendly and this eased my nerve. I was told that i did good and my voice is great, which was very flattering. Soo Yung gege gave me a hyper confidence boost. Thanks for giving me this opportunity and your  musical guidance. 

After the practise, Sam, Sansit, and Wei Rung came into the picture. We were suppose to go dinner after they came but when musicians group together, jamming would be the activity. We went to old town for dinner and then return to Dectar for some recording. Mana tau, we continue to jam....this time acapella came in and we try on a manderin song and a english song as well. Our version of 'Stand by me' is nice.... A random, sudden idea and that song was a perfect choice. For a 1st attempt de work, it was consider very well done. We were so high, we started to plan on shows and songs we wanna do and called ourselves temporarily as  UKMpella/fella..... dammit.... in a day, i witness very talented people showing off their skill and i learned so much of stuff about singing, in the most hilarious and craziest way... 

i have lotsa fun with great singers and musicians especially. U guys rocks!!! Pianists.... kim leng, sam, wei rung!!! gosh...guitarists....current n future....sooyung, siewin.... OMG.... with u fellas....i can explore myself better musically... i x improve also hard la. Loves you all to the max...muaks muaks.

Itu wei rung.... 1st time talk to him....serious wa....haha. You bring a lot of fun to us... multi-talented dude. Next time dance cha cha with me again.... i need a partner to practice. =)

I'm looking forward to the recoding in studio and to produce an album with u guys.... 

more jamming.... less fuss....woot =)

**will upload the recording once i found out how **

kong k + most anticipated movie

After a brief resting when my exam was finally over, my power was regenerated. On the 30th of April, i was more ready than ever to go for an outing. Early planning was to go K with Benjamin n YS then movie with him and his cousin in the morning. Then my night time would belong to my Newtuners. Since my dear Pumpkin was snatched by her sister, i mai go my own activity le. Somehow, plan corrupted...YS couldn't come to K season. So there was only me and him in the room, singing and at times yelling....key off, nevermind, we had each other to cover up...haha. 

i like my shot better =P

My first date with him was at K-room too, red box. Hey, were we in the same room?? LOL... Benjamin is one good friend that has a special place in my list. I dunno how to tag you....i am not sure how to categorize you into my well n defined circles of fwen. I wanna treat u as one of my gals. Emotionally yes, physically cannot ma. I hug n kiss my babies de. Then, wanna call you close pal pulak, we can seriously have a long period of time not talking, not commenting on each other post, not meeting at all, as though we are ignoring each other... but when we finally meet up, haha....gila stuff happen.

I like creating buzz with you. Basically we did nothing but still there will be people talking... And we couldn't be bothered. I like the fact that we share common interests n attitudes except for the fact that u like choco n i'm into coffee. This sem sees our friendship progress. You have been my eyes when i buta jalan most of the time....does this phrase sounds familiar??... Lastly, thanks for being a great companion of mine. We started the sem 2gether, now we officially end it as well. Proudly declaring you as my bff.

**lick lick**.....hahaha...our secret code

Then we off to get some ice-cream...Switzerland brand...what was the name again? Once her cousin sister arrived, we off to the movie. 

 

Ice Kacang Puppy Love 

a.k.a 

Chu Lian Hung Tou Ping 

Those who watched has been praising this movie non stop and it was highly recommended. Still, i do wish to keep my expectation low. This Malaysian product was a huge surprise! It was totally a great movie. The characters are well presented. The plot is interesting, might be predictable and typical but who cares? Doing the best out of simplicity is the hardest task ever. Many end up making disaster, this would be the best Malaysia product to date. All Malaysian affair and some sprinkle of hongkongers. 

Simply hilarious and meaningful.

Angelica Lee acted so well. When she cry, i cry with her...dammit. Paling x suka cry when i'm watching movie in cinema. Adui... i like her best in this movie. I like the fact she broke free from the horror genre where i still think she lack of something. I can't feel her being afraid, but in this movie, i could feel her being hurt. I felt hurt. I found myself related to her character....in some sorta way. I thought it was a OMFG situation when she kisses Botak....haha. U have to be really in love with him to kiss him ba.... =) Oh, i like the woman who act as her mother too.

 I never am a fans of Ah Niu.... i had my view 100% changed today. This photos were taken by my senior in UKM when he was involved in the whole production. He acted as a she, a woman who always geboh in the cafe shop. So proud of him even though it was just a small role. His name is 

Soon Kien Seng.

this is the character he plays

 these are the pictures on the set from his collection. thanks bro for allowing me to publish this.

Personally, i like how the story tell the 1st love from the angle of a guy, since he was young. I like the idea where he would always be there for her regardless of she needed him or not. He will always be the one who could tell if she is happy or sad. I like how the movie emphasize little gesture like hair petting and touches. Sometime, it might seems small, but it might means something to that person. I despise the fact that he never have the courage to confess. Letter writing could be romantic but it's also a coward's personality. A guy who never has the courage to confess to a girls he loves is never worth to be loved. But that was what the story wanted to tell...the innocence of young lovers. 

This wouldn't be what i want tho. I don't like to play guessing games...it often proves my antenna malfunctioned~

After the movie, we went to the shushi Zanmai for our dinner as i called off the night outing with another geng. It was too challenging for me to travel alone to places i never go and 4 someone like me who can get lost in the exam hall, the distance and channel switching lanes are way too extreme. So sorrie....

The sushi served was artistically beautiful...they tasted good tim...no wonder there are always long queues outside even without promotion. 

A satisfying day to celebrate the end of final examination cum my 2nd year~30th April 2010

=)))

 

the end of second year

I don't know how to exactly express my feeling here... for the first time i had two exam clashed in a day...the final day for my final exam. Overall, i think i did okay but there is always room to improve in my case. It's not that i couldn't give my 100% but my passion n will to score is no longer burning inside of me. All last minute stuff got me to the edge of point where i no longer generate willingness to battle for a deanlist. I did try to revise and maximise the time given as my timetable was consider the best as i have a total of 7days before every weekly 3 subjects. But.... when there is but, it means procrastination occurred....

pumpkin bday celebration

What i hated the most is my period cycle. IT as though understand my will not to be bothered by the uneasiness during exam week. Stress came visiting and IT got stuck. Just on the last day of the exam, my period came in the morning....gila.... if you could got stuck for so long, stuck for a few more days then. That day. I was supposed to go to the Mines with Pumpkin and watch IPMAN. (i always pronounce I-P MAN rather than 'yip man'...haha...) Since i had no sleep the night b4, i have to reject the outing and surprise her in the wee hour of april 30th. 

my favourite gals

We had a crazy n loud celebration at her room thanks to saukheng and her willingness to drive....after that, me and saukheng and another gal went to KTHO for a teh tarik time. 1st time went there for supper... Seriously, i have yet to explore UKM to the fullest... 2 years already wei~ next year... promise i'll be better in knowing my own university.