still in the mood for NTLP 13

Whenever midnight comes, the itch to blog comes attack....yes, and my work is not done... OMFLord

this year back drop... beautiful

To be serious, i could still feel quite emo although NTLP 13 has finally wrapped and it's done for good. I try to prevent myself from thinking it so  those annoying flash back dun come strike me all times. I do enjoy reminiscing those sweet memories but not the week after the big function ba.... it could be dreadful u see... i'm facing it now... it's pathetic and it's taking over me...

the opening show...ballerina in the music box

da hot dancers....nose bleed

I thought to myself that i shall move on and back to reality but again, it's not easy. I was practically busy seeking my picture on that performance night and watch all the MMS and join all New Tune activities in FB and damn, u guys are insane... i like....haha

Thanks for the shots....

Yet to believe compliments, Andrew convinced me to believe in myself. He finally listened to all the recordings and he said that i managed to sing even with that sudden speed showcased i'm capable and i have great voice, if i dun misinterpret him.  I was a little stunned. We both thought it was a bit sayang as it could be so much better without the ~ as interpreted by MR. Andrew~ F1 speed~tempo...

fellow vocalists

Now should i doubt his hearing or should i start believing in jcdagreat? It's funny how when you could simply brag funnily in front of many people but when u finally receive compliments, you choose not to gratefully accept them... lolx... i am weird...

me and my band mates~ for you~

Many was surprised with my performance which was a surprise to me in contrast... hmm, i guess i need to exposed my self more in this sense....by this, i can proudly say that i am not at all showoffy...infact, downgraded my self by my own insecurity and self-doubts which are sucks. And this is the person who always say that if you don't believe you have a good voice, you don't go admit you like singing or dun at all go prove yourself in audition... shame jc....shame... wer was that ego when u needed it most?

Thanks for the last time, for now for all the supports and knowledges all New Tunners has ever given me... this given opportunity is way to precious and for this, i am blessed. 

Thanks andrew, fish, kok hou, alex, soo yung, n 30 for enhancing my confidence

Thanks yi chuan, jieru, tracie. ah fai, vincent, witter, william, jess lee, ah tat ....the seniors who got their impacts in my learning

edmund, siewin, hooiling, shereen, arif, louise, boss, emillia those that entered NT the same badge as me... u guys have special presence whenever i c u guys in bandroom... it feels like family ^^

all juniors and first time collaborators... esp yen ming, kwang haw, tisu, lisa, chee huan, wendy, cacing...and so many others deserving dearest... tired mentioning names... u guys show so much commitments towards Nt and this is a good beginning for better success.

 Looking forward to this thursday celebration....

muakss

New Tune Live Performance 13th....

 A SUCCESS despite the celaka sound system... i can't believe they dare to charge so expensive with such lousy work and terrible attitude of the technicians... well, one who do not respect time consider as terrible, for me. 

 this was about one month before NTLP13

i had great fun, great day with all new tuner. Being part of this function made me proud. I love everything about the concert, the multimedia creativity, the new group of friends i found, the dancing performances, the whole learning process was all worth while.  

 9th of march

wanna thank my fellow course mates and all my friends who came support me and other New Tune-ner... u guys are the best!!! It means so much for me and i hope u guys have fun despite some technical problems...

~my pre show look~

Somehow my bandmates were more excited than me...the song was way faster than the original speed and i was seriously outta breathing point... tho it will become a yihan for me but u guys hav done ur best and please do noe that i love u all so much. U guys gave this song a life.... 

 the song composer and arranger

 me n my junior singers

My out fit was like.... gosh... i can't believe i was a lil self embarrassed by it. 1stly, the 3inches heels were a new record for me... at least i x jadi pokai.... 2ndly, the red gaun was slightly loose and it was sexy alright~ 3rdly....red....sigh... luckily no wig liao... but, tho it might really look good on me on stage, pls dun make me uncomfortable... i am not a well trained nor skilled performer, and by this, i can only be at my max best in my comfort zone.... still, i truly appreciate my stylist as i was told i look fine on stage.... 

pretty lads... lol

Last year humbleness made me learned so much more than others cuz i was twice hunger for valuable teaching and chances. Performance always come 2nd after the precious lessons and practices in NewTune you can't find else where...

my 2 lovely gals...

I like seeing all Ex NewTunner musicians n singers coming back to support us... especially Kok Hao... Very abang like...dun be fool by the name BLACKMAN...

i have so much to learn from her

Thanks NTLP for selecting me as the singer and the song For You... I hope i did not disappoint. Although i received quite alot of praises, my self disbelieve tend to keep me from floating on the air... i would think that certain people are being very nice...perhaps this is my way to keep myself grounded or probably due to the fact that i knew my performance wasn't perfect... but as the saying goes... non performance could be ever prefect...this is my start off point and i shall progress.... 

thanks for the lovely memories

more photo form the live stage soon

4th rehearsal

oh god...

Rough day... i was so stressed out and was really lack of energy... i hate the fact that i can't get my words and my voice out... I'm not doing enough homework... and my worries and self hatred shown on my face today. I was seriously swallowed by the out fit and i feel trapped. It limited my movements and i was totally uncomfortable. It wasn't bad but definitely not my best and this time i fail to maintain my level. 

Seen was there.... happie to see him again... and few super seniors i cant recognize. Feel better when he said i have good melody. Yi Chuan gave me alot of opinions today... he observed and totally point out my problems...  He said facial expression busuk la.... haha, da same problems again... sigh, how can i fix it.... 

shall  train more 2morrow...

some musicians are really tai pai de lo.... wer is your priority at this moment? u shud noe which is more urgent right?

5 DAYS

on counting

...

Practicing in room in wee hour at 0 volume but pure showmanship and mouth exercise for better pronunciation... scare roommate marah...lolz

this is what i wanna do, this is where i'll be heading...

I'm not a power house vocal master 

i'm not even the best skilled singer at all

but i am definitely one of those that shine on stage

Im blessed with the hunger to learn and great passion for betterment.

Showmanship is my strength and R n B is my style, English song is my zone, slow, sentimental songs are my soul and emotional best projection.

In contrast I'm given a pop groovy fun love song.... which is a challenge for me despite it being the best one for me for now.

Im no longer the self-conscious gal who tremble giler on stage that humiliate her self b4 audiences. Gotta work out more... 

2day learned harmonizing as background vocalist for Qing Kao with Hooi Ling under guidance of Fish... With her everything seem possible and it sounded so good. The arrangement became smooth but since im a slow learner, we manage to settle only the 1st half chorus. Gotta have stronger grip in key range... 

Thinking of learning instrument.... then i can finally write my many luan luan hummed hormony but never once written down cuz key pak chi ma... haha... 

Guitar maybe~ but i think i will prefer piano~ never bass... x suit me... drum seems cool...

haha.... great planning...rich in content and futuristic tim... NO TIME

arghhhhhh

6 more days

3 more rehearsals

There's a sweet junior said she like my song and my singing... lolz... acknowledgment... i need that to boost my confidence...

thanks darling
=)

3rd rehearsal

There was a practice b4 rehearsal came so i feel a lil more comfortable b4 the performance. During practice time, my voice got stuck, well not that it never stuck b4 but worse than that.... and i cant at all project my voice left alone singing the words right.... ughhh... blame it on the stu coffee i had the previous nite... 

yada yada... this time rehearsal, i've got Fish, Jia Wei, Emillia, and Soo Yung there as audiences. When i open my mouth for the 1st Rn B section, i totally lost grip of what i wanna do... well, not a big matter... just doesnt sound like what i want... 

i think i love staring eyes... looking at those supportive fwens among audiences, i magically doubled up your confident and i was dancing all the way there... sempit a!!! 

Comment time~ i couldn't express how much i appreciate constructive critical comments...

My band mates deserved all the credit... clean playing, not much to be criticized. the feel and the groove is well presented. JOANNE!!!---> haha... open mouth big big and sing clearer... be more confident n noe where u are heading on stage...  this FOR U song, brush up buleh naik pentas liao... 

Jcdagreat dun wanna possessed me fully... sigh... dun mumble da wordings a....Face, Grace, Place....

Andrew is GOD...very am grateful for his advise and will follow as much as i possibly could. I dun wanna sia sui this chance of performance or even disappoint my fellow New Tuner...

Will sing background for Claire in Just Go Away~ with abang SooYung =) , all 2 gather 2 songs plus qing kau for siewin~

Vincent said i Hiao... =.=

Hello!!! u r looking at the mirror...i am ur reflection KIDDO... hahahahaha

this whole process is what i missed last year... i am thankful for given this opportunity to experience it all over again...