The old place we called it.

The mall we frequent to. 

The first place you fulfilled my desire to eat the most expensive ice cream

 that i know of.

That day i knew that a boy remembered his promise.

And today he is my one and only.

I have yet to eat my second cone cuz we were always late and in a rush for dinner or movie.

I dont know what is there for us in the coming days but right now holding hand with you wherever we are is my favourite activity.

I only wish for your good health physically and emotionally. 

The rest of others issues like suitability and insecurities... i guess time will tell. There is no one man show in a relationship.

I cant force things that speaks answers to my doubts. Thus i might as well just leave it to the flow. 

My heart knows better.

When it comes to feeling, im not confused.

Only when it comes to action, im restricted by emotion.

You say that there is no maths in relationship. There is no ratio or amount of who loves who better or more. 

You just love and let things come naturally.

Fair share of love is never too overwhelming to ask for right?

Despite everything else, i had a great limited hours with him. Im glad he is getting better.

Please keep your health as priority.

When i was most down, 2 of my best friends sensed that and quickly texted me if im okay.

I guess their sensitivity matches mine. Haha...
I was really touched and im happy that despite we hardly meet one another, you girls just know me.

Joanne and Kheng, thank you. If i was on the verge of suicide, you gals might have just saved my life.

But i wasnt.

I was really having a bad mood and bad thoughts.
Work and relationship and my family.

All of them are out of my control and i was not able to calm my mind at all.

But then i realized i got my friends worried. And it was the time i gotta wake up.

We have talked again about my feeling and although i was not convinced by his words, i know he cares. We dated over the weekend after a fucking deadly week in the bank.

It finally feels like our good old time in the longest time.

It is almost one year since your mom passing.
That whole month was so dreadful for us and i never ever want you to go through that period anymore. Never again.
I cried almost everyday thinking of your well being while try to be tough to cover both your needs and work.

I wanted to hold you so badly and just let you release but i couldnt. You dont want me there.

Tell me love. Talk to me.

Anything that i could so long my love persist.
My vow to our love.

To her. To you.