I used to be a very vocal person.
Lively. Talkative. Bubly. Those who know me along the years would be able to tell you how different i am now compared to those times.

I dont know what change me.
Even if i dont talk much, i would write a lot.
If only my english proficiency could do better, i would have engaged in journalism. Or as novalist. I still have this dream parked temporary aside so that i could stop day dreaming and start make a living, to make ends meet.

So yea, so the historical event has begin to settle down to more subtle mode. But it is still damn engaging and i just got so much to say but to no audience. Yea i can talk to my mom but she just not too interested in it. I can talk to my bf but we hardly talk really. So.... i feel imbalance at times.

I have been ignorance for a long time specifically things that could overworked my brain... but this one really spark an interest in me.
Suddenly that dreams to write ignited again.

Sigh.

My New Malaysia. Negaraku Malaysia.

It has been a historical week for all Malaysian.

On the faithful day of May 9th 2018, Malaysian has shown a powerful will to overturn a corrupt government in the most democratic way in our 14th general election. 

I have registered myself as a voter 1 year before the due date and I kept reminding myself that i could not affort to miss this event again after witnessing the horrer of how dirty and low the last election was. I decided there and then that this government has to go. 

Thus, without studying much on what the opposition has to offer, i casted my vote to support them, my one humble vote and wishing hard that they will be granted a victory. After all, the oppostion group has been fighting for the past 60 years with no financial support and all of them came from very briliant educational background, all for the sake of speaking for Rakyat's wellfare. When all they fight for was not for the personal gain, you know they are pretty genuine. (other than for power of which they were denied pretty much and in term of wealth, they are pretty poor cuz they just depends on public donations of cuz it is different when you win a state or two of which the opposition only has 2 states)

So lets examine...

The right will, checked.

The passion and new blood, checked.

New direction and agendas, checked.

The rightful leader... erm... checked twice!

And then came Tun Mahatir wanting to right what was wrong and collectively binded all the opposition parties known as Pakatan Harapan. As the name suggested, a hint of hope to the country which was under the clouds of bribery at large, scandals shamed by all international news and Menteri with low life ill mannerism. 

Thus came the battle. So many dramas and dirty tricks saw along the day. But the most alarming thing that surfaced out of this crazy ride was the displays of unity by rakyat in so many levels of supports. From the highest level by politician to the very minor details if supports being given by rakyat. 

Media.. only certain pages in FB that runs independently manage to deliver us truthful news while other media were government linked.

A burst of patriotism suddenly ignite out of the blue no thanks to the sacrifices made by many unsung heroes that enable this miracle to happen.

On the 10th of May 2018. Malaysia made a world wide record for overturning a 60 yrs strong gigantic government by Barision National. 

It shocked many if us specifically the Barisan Nasional team. Many dreams came true that very day. 

Tun mahatir became the oldest prime minister being elected. 

Despite many grandmother dramas of which are very disturbingly exciting, we manage to pull through successfully.

I have never been prouder to be called as a Malaysian.

A reborn. A reformation. A clean start. However this is only the beginning. I hope the country will continue to be blessed with inteligence and dignity.

That the government elected by Rakyat will do its very best for Malaysian 1st and foremost.

And to hunt for those corrupt individuals.

I love my country. 

An influencial lady said on the tv that pregnancy makes a woman better likewise when a woman is very much loved by her man.

I am sold for that.

Cuz i am that kind of person. I wont be agreeing to every advise my man has given me but i will do it out of love and guilt shall i not listen to the man who love me genuinely.

As at now he was kinda successful halfway. Sometimes. I know he care. At times i need more commitment and evidence. And plus i am stubborn. Not many people are allow to lecture me.

I am very happy that you finally become much better and stronger in person. Except that big panda eyes u have, you appear okay. So energetic :)

I really like it when u blow my hair dry. That was a sweet lovely gesture. It feels intimate.

I like you singing infront of me. Although sometimes you just purposely do it to annoy me, i feel warm knowing that u feel at ease and that you are trying to tease and make me laugh at the silly tricks of yours.

I like it when u told me about your family. Your past stories cuz it holds values from where you came from and how they shape you into you.

I already miss you so bad.
I wanna hold your hand and feel you next to me.
That would be waiting till another paktor date.

Take care baby.

Best wishes and blessing for your mama and your family.

Be strong dear.
I wish you find your happiness again and i wish that i got to contribute into your well being.