Shower Rain : Relapse.

Tear streams as shower rains.
As heavy as they could.
As silent as they could.
Clinging each other as droplet falls.
Finding solace in somber embrace.

Raw and nude as ever be.
Body and soul.
Heart versus mind.
Yearning for closure.
Seeking none.

Nobody should ever know.
Nobody should ever bother.
Because the flaw is mine.
One too many to decipher.
Not whole to begin with.
Not yours to begin with.

Emotions they ran free.
Wild and chaotic.
Shameless and unforgiving.
Forcing its way out from misery.
Feed on craze and delusion.

Low as the depth of the ocean floor.
Dark, ugly and brusied.
There you see me fallen and despair.
Rise for certain in due time.
Stronger than ever you shall find.

While time may be not kind.
Memories shall fades in time.
Perhaps.
Another storey ends hanging.
Only future holds the truth.

Set the rain falls hard as it can be.
Washes away doubts and grief.
Days will turns into months.
Soonest.
There you find me rise once more.

#joanne.

Its okay.
Its a good release.
But i wonder due what reason.
Have i decided to walk away again?
Do i wanna?

I think mostly i was devastated not because i have an ending to the matter.
Its because i always have to seek a way to walk out from it.

So that things can go back to normal.
At least it can be applied to others.

I dreamt about you today.
Nothing fancy. As usual.
Always a distance in between.

Oct pls be away soon.