Okay. From the day i hide this blog, i myself no longer favour to write down my stories here pun. I wonder if it was me not lured to write as there will be zero chances of ppl reading me or that lately im just more sad than excited to write down anything.
But these few days more or less involve them both.
It all started during preparation for cjx bday.
I managed to get 9 people all of which are my favourite and i know cjx wouldnt mind to have on her bday. Plan was carried out quite nicely. Situated at greenbox we have cjx, jo wsy, derrick, lanson, nasrol, genesis, ms yap, zk n myself.
In the morning itself i have already sent her a bouquet of roses n a bell shaped ferrero chocolate box. She was more scare than happie when she received the flower. Cuz i have been telling her that i am bisexual. Haha...
I got everyone agreed on 7pm at jusco. We were given a medium room and many professional singers around yo...it was a warming and happie new get together. I specifically love it as i managed to carry out this big event. Not easy to gather 9 ppl around u see and it is like a dream team of my favourite participants. Some went home earlier. The seating places was abit odd really. Hmmp. I decided not to choose side. Cjx was occupied by jo wsy. So im glad she is taken care of. Everyone was at ease and have own sit around partner. I went home around 12am plus and once i bath n on bed, i have terrible migraine and was having cold. It was a sign of terrible fever.
How bad u ask? 1 week of high fever. 2 doctor visit.
Losing voice. N diarrhoea many days. 1day mc too.
The day, again someone has intentionally ignored my message making me so much in hatred. Again and again. That was the 1st day I set my watsapp setting in simplest setting n got everyone wonder why. Great! Ignorance done well. I hate it.
Cuz of this fever i missed 20th december PT gathering.
I almost missed a branch annual dinner as well of which i earned a lucky draw 2nd place.
What a month!
Fast forward. Xmas eve. Ky dated me for a lunch. The night before and the whole eve noon, a new friend was chatting with me on the phone. We again talked from a to z and from the moon and back. All sort.
He knowing i dont have any date for eve dated me for a dinner n countdown in a very unconventional way.
At one moment i thought he was just fooling around. But he was serious. He reaffirmed me. I was super excited i dont know why and nervous as hell.
Since KY didnt reserve me for a night date, I accepted his offer. We had a light dinner, a movie and cafe overnight chat past midnight at uptown.
It was a pleasant evening. It happens quite naturally. I found him very very lovely n gentleman.
He made sure i was pampered despite me wanting to wear the pant.
He wanted to call it quit for the movie cuz we had a limited time for dinner. I didnt want him to waste the money so i insisted we watch. I thought it would be awkward but ours were okay n I was comfortable with our close distance over the movie.
Warm talk at a cafe and we sat thru the countdown and saw santa who gave each of us a kit kat. From his place it was so bloody far and the night wasnt too kind with rain and traffic. Yet he kept his cool and carefree attitude making me breezy and comfortable.
After he went home we continue to talk until 3am. This was not our 1st time. Mid nite chat. It has been long since i last experienced mid nite chatting. He was still shy and i wonder if it was me or he has yet to get used to me. Or was i intimidating? Or i think too much?
It has been a long time since i last felt that way. Very loved n lovely.
But i thk he was thinking a lot. Holding just a little bit. Testing water?
The whole of that day i didnt think of the broken one. He often will find me chat but he no longer. N it doesnt surprise me. This made me realize he would hurt me specifically on special day cuz i will not be prioritized. If i was to wait for him to date me thinking that he likes me i would have wait forever.
Realization sucks u see. He is slapping an answer to my face telling me to wake up.
26th came and kayling bday arrived.
I had a great gathering with u65 kakis the whole of the evening.
I have total zero expectation from him any more.
I know he will need to chase his figure for these last few days. And its crucial. But what i can help i have already done. I have done my very best for him.
I cant do anything more even if im around at branch. I have another 2 days leaves n it happens to be his crucial days. Sigh. I wish u all the best. I really have devoted my best to you. But apparently.... it doesnt matter. I did not matter. never mind.
Get back the top sales recognition and we shall seal our friendship a good closure. Best of luck.
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