Jcdagreat: Bitch Gone Nasty

Tuesday, 29 January 2013

Bitch Gone Nasty

So I gave you 3 weeks of chances already.

I hate talking on the phone yet I pick up ur calls everyday.

Since the 1st day I asked for your identity which I supposed I have already accept ur existence in my life.

But you didn't make the best out of it. Instead you beat around the bush escaping the question, not disclosing.

I got so fed up with the way you talk to me. The more you speak, the more doubtfulness it seems.

Then you make me look like I am naive & that I am easy to get. Making me wonder do you want a relationship or do you want fast cheap sex?

Then you try to ask & control me like I am somebody to you when you are clearly a nobody to me.

What's the matter with you?

I don't know if this is the way the 70's era guy chases girl but it definitely doesn't appeal to me.

Especially a Leo gal to begin with.

That Sunday was the day I lost my temper. I literary scold him in the phone. By night, I thought myself this is enough. I don't wanna proceed with the maize while not knowing what to expect in each corner, each calls.

I know he has low standard of English understanding but I have no choice but to send him a long msg to asked him not to call in anymore & that I won't pick up until he realized what this is all about & his intention.

I expected him to call right after. I expected him not to understand the msg. I hope he tries. I hope he fix this.

Give me room to breathe.

To date, I received 10 calls. I didn't answer. Do you have any idea how extremely bad I feel. I noe how improper for one not to answer call. You left me with no choice. I feel so awful. I really hate how you make me feel.

I don't hate you really. I appreciate you attention on me. Whatever happen on the 1st week was sweet. However, once you started to question me stuff & the fact that you let me know I shared this position with someone else makes me pissed.

Some one so brave yet so cowardly. Someone so truthful yet so secretive.

I don't know how long I can stand this.

Or what will he do further to fix this.

Will I allow another chance?

Did he deserve another chance?

Mind you I still don't know his name. Madness. & I allow 3 weeks of phone conversation. 1 lunch & I dinner date. Stupid right? I felt stupid. He fails me everyday yet I thought maybe this could go on for awhile.

Which is why you think it was okay of delaying facts I need to clarify. Dafuq.

You made me feel so awful right now.

You're gonna pay for this!

I pity you! I pity myself even more!

I talked to my senior about this.

I told him everything. He is my mentor, my direct, my friend.

He question me of what do I want really?

I thought awhile. I actually want a lot of things he don't have.

But it boils down to one thing.

I said Sincerity.

I remember this Idiot asked me the same thing before. What do I want to know. He once also say that I don't appreciate his effort.

My ego & its madness.