Introducing a new column in Jcdagreat's blog

"As J C it"

Sounds familiar :) The Gleeks noes

Last Sunday, I went to UKM to collect the robe. The purple cat suit. I was very excited. I never thought I would be. I was like, why do I feel so hollow when my big day is approaching. I was acting so kiddo feeling over joyed when I put on the robe. Finally, I am a graduate. Was having a sleepy look. Non good picture taken. It was a moody noon~ heavy downpour. Sigh. 

Hana, this time market my dad pulak. Very handsome man... That's y I'm equally pretty XD. Ok, puik. Furballs. I get it!

Finnish wrapping convo gifts yesterday. I just cannot be proud enough with my artwork. I have this ultra ego in things I'm good at. I dun trust other people's effort unless she is someone I look into. Can't wait to send all of them out. I think I'm more happy sending out gifts than receiving it. The smile on their faces is priceless. 

 Great things come in small packages too alright 

Wish they are all mine :)

2 people who promised me lavender already disappoint me cuz they couldn't attend my convocation. I wasn't really expecting it, but there was a hope. Most importantly, I wanted to meet them. Sigh. Too bad. 

Another piece of my writing is published. Thanks CkLee. I hope it inspires. 

Oo...Guess what, I got the job. Sumthing tells me that I would get a good news in two weeks time. Once again proven that results, records of capabilities and great English command works hand in hand. It's all about total package nowadays. If I want it, there is no way I can't get it. This theory is definitely applicable on my desire to achieve my dream. It does not apply in my relationship with men though.

I had people failing me, situations and lucks too. So it's only fair that I should never fail myself. 

Hell ride of working phase starting soon.

I'm starting from zero in this University of Community. 

Saya budak baru belajar, Kalau salah tolong tunjukkan XD

I mean Jangan marah please ~

The Right Exit

There are times when you come to a dead end and have no other alternative route ahead; you just have to go back to the point where you have started. 

You will need to plan from scratch again and this time, think harder, think further, prepare better so that you do not need to walk a wasted journey again.

Was the wrong pathway a wasted journey? 

Think again! 

While you were seeking for the right one, you met a few wrong turning points. Where did they lead you? Nowhere! But you achieved something. Recall it! You could draw out a map stating all the wrong locations so you don’t repeat the same mistake.

No matters how many times you fail to get out from the maze, you would still manage to return to the same starting point. Well, you know human instinct. Along the misleading journey, you probably wailed, snapped, scared, cursed and cried wishing you could have taken the other exit. If you were lucky, you might meet some good guiders or sinners who made a fool out of you naivety. 

You learned, you picked up a skill or two in order to fight the wild things and you grew while dealing with your own demon- the side of you who wanted to give up, to surrender, someone who was too weak to fight. 

Some people had it easy as they were provided with necessities. Some unfortunates ones were expected to go the tougher way. No one is born loser. There are only designed winners and bruised winners. 

No matter how long you take to reach your destination, you will eventually make it. The whole bewildered journeys became your past, the past that molded you into the person you are today. The difficulties you endured horn your skills, strengthen your faith and groomed you towards perfection.  

 So, do you still feel sorry for your harsh life? 

Don’t ever be because it was that roughness that makes you want to strike for success. Do not be afraid of failure for when you reach rock bottom, you will have nothing to lose to strive for success. Some try to avoid failure in every step they are taking in life. They end up hesitating and calculating the consequences of each action they want to acquire, which truly takes away their access of freedom in choices. 

Most importantly, they lose the rights to live fascinatingly. A life like this is better not live at all. You want to create magic, be the magic! 

Each pathway in life is a learning curve that leads you to your destiny. You place your bet; you draw your own gamble. The result is the last thing you need to know. As long as you take the first step, you are already half way winning. 

-I noe-

-I tried-

-I won-

Was very happy to see so many delicate bears...

I wish they are all mine... Yor, things I do for love

It's time for creativity... Wrapping convo gifts :)

Will be at UKM for the whole convocation period

Date me fast

=)

Family, when u dun get to see them often, they are blessing. When u see them too often, they become stress. 

Tension

I'm not happy

please find me a remedy 

Lumix -no more blur images...

 

Cam whoring with my dog this evening. Damn my pretty baby.... so bloody cute like usual. It's a periodic phase of a must do activity with my dearest. To just remind myself that my dear is getting older~  

Too bored recently. Is waiting for my convocation, my interview result, a coming interview on Hari Malaysia @@ and more interview calls (hopefully). Sigh. I have been resting for a good one month and a half. I can't believe resting is also tiring and it's a torture to a supremely active girl like me. I can't take this any longer. Convocation is just 2 weeks away... Wee... 

Made lotsa pretty babies yesterday... I should say finalized them. All of them are beautifully dressed and is waiting for their new owners. Sigh, I hope your adopted parents will treat you well. 10 bookmarks were done uniquely delicate. Might write a post to teach how to do it. It's not hard. You can DIY it provided u have great sense of artistry in you with high creativity. XD. 

 This is moon flower... Cantonese call Keng fa~ Very special flower which only blooms in the night, hence the name moon flower. Around 9pm, it was seen curling out from the enclosure. In this angle it looks like a man-eater plan right? haha....

This one was about 10.30pm. Half way to its full bloom. This time tak jadi take the full bloom one. Sigh. It only last one night. The next day it will close and soon die off. They smell brilliantly. Very soothing and comfortable scent. I blogged about this flower once actually. This time with Lumix XD. Nicer images. Sayang jor cuz last time, there were 5-7 blooming flowers. Such exceptional beauties!

I bought a forceps that day to deal with beads for my artwork. The scientist ghost took over my body and decided to cut the bud off and examine the internal side of the flower. Woot... pure whitish petals are all taken out piece by piece. It reminds me the time when I surgically BEDAH 2 mouses in my whole life. Uwek!!! I can still recall how I skinned off the hair and flesh, cut open the torso and took all the organs out... T.T I'm so sorry. Blame it on Science, I love mammals esp very hairy ones. I actually kept some hamsters when I was young. I have some compassion for mice. 

I think I need to be more alert and less ignorance towards something I don't fancy. And just recently, I have this strong urge to fix the FB posters about their wrongly written sentence and bad usage of words below their post. Arghh...Sakit mata...sakit hati. Y am I so free?

Ate great food in BBQ organized by my aunt. Damn, hilang all the jogging efforts. Oh dear, drag me out please... I need to lose more~ 

Or else I couldn't wear my catsuit on my convo day and give the sexiest curvy S-to-die-for pose.

:) Oh tummy~

Convo Vol. 1

I finally did something I thought I wouldn't do. Create an event page to inform people about my convocation. I used to think it was too much and unnecessary when I was invited by seniors last time. Now I see what urge them to do so. 

I always imagine how chaotic it would be if all my dancer fwens and newtune gang come at the same time. My coursemate leh? I haven't count all juniors and some seniors~ family some more... I am the first from the family of Chai (starting from my grandpa le) to have graduate from university.

Oh dear... Yeap. The last thing I need to worry about is the number of people who will not attend my convocation. I'm greedy. I wanna see all my dearests but I don't think I can handle more than few at the same time. I wouldn't be fair and I hate to choose form the most precious. Think too much right? I know... I can't help it. I'm too free for goodness sake! I really wanna be there for their convocation too. I need to be there all four days.

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What have I done to make u have so little faith in me? All the while, I try so hard to prove to you guys about my independence and capability, how come none of that ever goes into your head? When I laid down choices for you to choose for me, you said I was indecisive. When I decided to do something, you questioned me and talked so much. What are you trying to teach me? I'm not doing wrong things so don't make me feel guilty. Most of the time now, with those fucking sensibility I still strongly possess, please do know I'm just informing you. I'm not asking for your permission. I'm pissed with rejection. Your concern is too overwhelming and is killing me. I'm too old for recovery, hence if I ever go rebellious, there is no more U-turn. U will lose me for real. 

Oh crap! I craps shits again. To Cancer-ian our there, pls don't marry your own kind. You will only make your kids suffer. Seriously, what were you doing when you were my age? And you're trying to control me? Don't talk so much... I can differentiate sense and nonsense. Respect my choice. Dun go judge me! You don't have any idea how much that means to me until you see for yourself how much I means to others as well. 

Arghhh....

I understand! I get it. I know! It's just so terrible when you know why they do that and you go against it cuz it was not wrong. Don't push me away. I wanted my freedom. The fact that I have to constantly worry of being rejected or my capability doubted is making me hate the whole idea of staying in hometown.

I make it too easy for u guys. Seriously, too easy. That's why you guys don't appreciate.

Am I too much? 

I'm sorry~ I have state my mind and I'm sticking with it. Stubbornly detach me from my choice, you will just bruise me. That scare will remain. I'm warning you, my patient is wearing off. The elder I am, the less I can take it. I dun wanna rebound. So please love me enough to let lose of me. 

Damn guilty peaks lor.... I wonder what you guys have done to have this wonderful me

XD. I love u guys enough to admit defeat most of the time. To go along with ur choices so you guys could sleep well at night. 

Grand my wish once in awhile. Let me breath. 

Medication kicks in just like I expected. Kinda sick la ini kitten =(

Nuff said. Feeling better. 

Wanted *ALIVE*

Missing, Jcdagreat