22nd Xmas Celebration :)

This early celebration is even more meaningful since we all escape the dooms day unscratched.

Though no apocalypse, either one of us could also hurt ourselves in one way or another but we didn't right?... i.e jatuh longkang on a bright sunny afternoon? LOL...they get me on this XD So it's worth a celebration.

Im sure that I'm confident that the end of the world is not due anytime soon. However, I took leaves on these 2 days which also mean I have a lot of free space in my brain that plays an uncertainty part in my belief. & The world seems to standstill where everyone was counting down on the times & it was exceptionally rare where the environment seems so quiet. The weather itself did not help either as black clouds were mapping across the sky.

I can't help but being anxious. Well...

Hail the mother nature I love you. Pls only kaboom when I leave the world for good. 

I had a fabulous outing today. A collective of only 5 people all of which dancer mates of PT31st.

I recently met one of them in her convocation but the rest I've yet to meet at least 1 year or longer. 

I must say it was just the purfect time for a gathering on my fav festival of all. 

Missed KTM on 8.30. Dammit. If only I could wake up slightly earlier...  Never mind, the day progressed well. Just well. Karaoke season is never a bad idea for every occasion. I have my favourite duet with Beary whom I have been looking forward to sing with. :) We could've done much better. 1st time :) Many more to come right?

I actually plan to visit all decoration in the whole Bukit Bintang area. But once we reach Pavillion, we chose to just chill out @Starbuck & chat which I totally agreeable. Coffee & fwens.... What's more spiritual than that? Wherever I am, that particular spot will be the noisiest in the room. Especially if we have 38, 48, & super talkative psychologist among us :) :) How purfect!

We could seriously talk all night if we want to. Sadly, there's time frame & we have to bid goodbye to each other - Not without a big beary hug to all of them. Very strong close hug. Only those worthy of. 

It aint easy to travel all the way to Bukit Bintang using public transport. Especially when I'm not really familiar with the lines & transition... Scary la... all these should have been experienced while I was still undergrad. 

Anyway, traveling is deadly tiring. It wasn't very far, long or even troublesome. Somehow, the drive to do it is low & I get too tired easily. 

Since, everyone of them is around the KL city & I'm the only one here... It's only logic that I travel upward once in awhile... Sigh. Tak patut la....

It worth every ounce of willingness for me to do so cuz every moment with u guys are golden. 

Yea, I'm expressive with words :)

PT 31st Dancers. Once a PT dancer, always a PT dancer. 

Merry Christmas 2012. 

Weekend

I had a happy Saturday Nite Gathering. A real happy gathering. 

I'm not sure what was the real factor, but I was at peace, tired but happy. 

Thinking about it, I almost FFK as I felt asleep 1 hour before taking off. Since I did the talking earlier of the day, so I can't be not making the walk materialized. 

Not many people were called, only familiar faces were invited. 2 partial U65 family members were there;

Mr. Gan ~ Kay Ling BF. 

Mr. Tan ~ OPM BF. 

Wow, Mr. Tan, nice to meet you in person. You look much fine in person than in photo. 

Both PHD levels BF.

I'm impressed, gurlz. :)

2 boys in the gathering asked a very funny question; If I am seeing someone already? They said they could feel it.... I was like... Boy's intuition? So wrong! lol

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My Bonia watch, hand-me-down by my dad was worn out, battery was dead earlier & very soon it will condemned. I wanna buy myself one since ages. Since bonus, erm... it's actually my accumulated & annualized OT income, arrived early on 12/12/12, I was geared up to purchase one expensive piece of accessory. 

I had my eyes fixed on several brands. Titus, Citizen & Seiko. 

Eventually only Titus won my heart. I was picking among 5 types. Price was an option although I have already set my price range at RM500 to RM800. I finally selected one after looking through the options available. Manly type, kinetic powered watch, scar proof screen just perfectly fit this lousy careless maiden. RM849 @ 10% + 10% discounts. Hence the final price fall just right into my range.

It's a early Xmas gift from me to myself  :)

I had myself a ring in the beginning of the year, a deng expensive purse & now an even expensive watch. Ouch!

Do I feel bad? Seriously, No hard feeling cuz if I am to be compared with my buddies, I'm considered as the lousy spender or perhaps the stingy max banker earner. XD

Personal belief... not sure if it apply to anybody at all.

I believe certain accessories one have to have to represent themselves. 

Of course money has gotta do the talking. For me, the watch, purse & a good looking phone are the few items that signifies you & your current status. 

The idea is that for instant, I earn this paycheck, hence I'm eligible to purchase goods at this price range. Whether or not I will picked the outliers or simply the medium priced products everybody enjoy is a question or rather a matter of choice. 

I'm spoil by choices. I hate making decision on available choices. A phobia.

I have big lust over branded items. I'm drivin by price tags. My eyes can tell which products are expensive & they often fancy them. So far, they have behave according to my mind & my wallet. My heart has no say in making decision cuz it's a weak portion of me who often find times to get crushed by wrong intuitions & fanciful imaginations.  

So, I have long lock it behind bars & only allows it to do what it's good at. 

Passion & Dreams.

LOL

Well :)

My heart might ache a bit. But I'm happy with my new toy. 

Sigh, another Monday. Another busy day. 

Short week ahead though. Taken leave on Thur & Fri :) 

Specifically for Santa Hunting.

The Wait

Read a real love story from a best friend's blog who is about to get married. 

A relationship which was earlier disapproved by her mother but at the end after 7 years of friendship/courtship, the man's sincerity has overcome her mother's insecurity. 

They are getting married this coming 29th of December 2012 & I will definitely be there to witness the happy newlyweds. It feels like fairytale when I go through her blog about her relationship with him, from where they met & love. So warming. True love does exists. 

Then I was reminded of a judgment a friend has on me. She said I often rush into a relationship which could possibly chase the guy away. She said I like someone too fast, indicated my intention to a guy too fast. 

I beg to differ. 

Maybe she has a point. However, not entirely true. 

I don't easily like someone so badly. I might develop a liking towards certain qualities in the men that I know but that doesn't mean I love them. I often drawn to very good guy. Good guys often seek for better woman which often is not me myself. 

So according to my friend, I must have patient & wait for the right one. 

In my point of view, the right guy should never let the right girl waits.

Whenever is right we don't know depending on each individual couple to decide. But when it's right, that's no reason to wait or else most probably you're doubtful. That's when you keep creating excuses & reason of why the wait is necessary.

Hence, the right feedback is crucial & I'm thankful for it. 

At least I'm not kept waiting & I'm so moving on. My friend's fiance has waited for her for 7 years. But he did not wait a second to ask her parents permission to marry her less than half a year of knowing them. 

Which is why her marriage to me is a reflective of a true love. 

I myself have gone through 3 times of disappointments which had me pondering the roots of this problem. 

I was rather sad with the previous liking. 

Anyway, I'm full of hope & imagination for the up & coming liking. 

It always gets better. 

Congratulation Nameerah :)

U know u're at the edge of work insanity when you answer your personal cell phone

"Hello, Public Bank!"

This is madness. I was in shock the moment I heard myself but just so happen those call weren't my fwens but customers/lawyer representative. 

Deng! Real stupid!!!

 

LET GO

Something unseen, unheard are better be written. 

At least sumbody might read me. Given that you understand me.

Letting go. Aish, big deal?  JLO's concert? Well, I like her like a lot. But I didn't love her madly. What make it even worst was MixFm keep repeating her hits triple plays every alternate period of time for 2 consecutive days. Some hits made me emo. Some hits unrecognizable didn't really appeal to me, so those make me feel better of letting go of this concert. She is a performer; Not a powerful ballad diva. So she gotta be seen rather than just be heard! Anyway, she as promised to our stupid Islamic representative, she will tone down the wardrobe to better suit our so said Malaysian culture & cancel off her dances to be less luring. She agrees to Indonesia & Malaysia.

 (Pls no offense cuz yesh, opposing superstar who has their culture of dressing or artistic value is ultimately STUPID!!! Say if USA banned YUNA for wearing headscarf while performing at their country or DISQUALIFY Shila Amzah participation in China for this Asian Wave competition cuz she wears scarf??  HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT??) 

& Guess what? What is our very own Miz Nina wearing & the way she dance? Korang Buta Ke?

 U have forced many superstars to cancel off their tour in MAS eg Beyonce & forced an annoyed Diva Mariah to only wear one attire blouse & jeans for her entire concert. The fact that they even choose to come is already a privilege to you Malaysia. Now because of our stupid brainless freaks, all of them choose Singapore. Do you even know how many fans from all over Asia are willing to spend on their journeys just to meet their idols? Do you even know how much income & taxes you ought to earn? Real Stupidity! Talk about their culture spoiling our youths & religion. My ass please. Fix your Rempit & Political shame before even pointing at else one. They even try to prevent Sir Elton John to perform. Like seriously?

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That's one. Works have been tough. Or maybe I'm just tough on myself. Returning to work every saturdays kinda freak me out on what I have signed myself up to last November. ( Hey, maybe I should write some misery song about Last November huh?) Not that I'm a workaholic, U bet I do stuff pretty speedily too. So what drives all this work madness? I have myself committed every 24/7. I barely had time for myself except for every night for myself, my lappy & the internet. Gosh. 

What's wrong? Take it slow & relax? You teach me! 

Anyway, month end is over. Phew~ Oh, I switched seat already as requested by my boss. Next to a super experienced senior. Facing directly my boss room X_X!!!

Good & bad though. I got my own space for a lot of my stuff. Had seats for customers. Less chilly. My ex seat was the coldest spot in the office if you ask me. My relieve colleague is switched as well. To another lady. A relief indeed! Somehow the rest keep asking me to be careful. Wow! So political.

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My grandpa... Oh gosh. He's getting weaker by weeks. Since the day he fell down, all problems started to come. His legs becomes numb & weak. He couldn't walk nicely. Now he couldn't even go out from the house. He was an active man where he enjoys going out to town meeting his buddies & everything. Now he's like useless. You know, He felt useless. That kinda hurts me. 

Today when my mom & I visited him @ my uncle's, he was having his nap resting on the bed. My mom being the caring one toward oldies sat on the bed side talking to him. I kept checking on them time to time cuz I just have no patient like she did & I couldn't face it. Half way through the conversation, I heard him cry. He said he was giving trouble to grandma & the children. Life's punishing him at this age of life. I crumbled. 

Came back home, I saw my dearest. A very old dog, coughing badly day to day. Sigh.

Helpless. 

Age is not being kind to us. It takes away your youth, your passion & most importantly your health. Time for some deep thoughts & new year resolutions if the world doesn't end by the end of this month. 

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There a lot of things in life that I couldn't wait. Impatient. I noe right. 

I could've rush into a relationship. I could've give up entirely on my job. I could've chase my dreams ignoring all necessity. I could've give in to everybody desires.

I noe certain things don't come easily. Certain things if you don't chase it, they don't come by. Certain things are far fetched still you can't let go. Certain things are just not meant to be yours. Don't even dream bout it. 

But humans are designed to be ungrateful. We hardly feel satisfy with whatever we have. We are born with thirst & we are here to be sinners. 

Hmm............ really. Where are thou'?

NoWhere. O NowHere.

To wait or to seek; I guess Im gonna go with the latter. 

Nite.

Happy Monday. Right!

 

Penang-fied Twice

I'm in love with the town. Or maybe I just love my companions. 

Everything about the trip was a blast. 

I had the rush of snatching a Penangit, get married & settled down for good. 

My fwens were like come over and work. We have public bank here too. 

:) 

I just melt!

Murals were located. Not quite all. Not quite the way I wanted. Given a choice, I possibly wanna take it as a treasure hunt. Locate it with the help of a map on a bicycle journey perhaps. I only have 2 days though.

 Oh well.

Roomie has been a great great companion & she provides me very comfortable accommodation where we repeats our habits of chatting non-stop telling each other 'bed time stories' :P

This whole trip was mainly for her. I think she would need me. Or maybe I want her to be able to reach me when she needs me. 

Of course not to forget my other babes in town. 2 of my fav female in NT were there.

The trip wouldn't be perfect without them. With a few additional person I managed to meet up, I call em the bonus :)

Food heaven!!! I seriously wish to take in more but my tummy doesn't allow em. Cis. 

Have been bloating since my arrival on Wednesday. 

I will come back for more. But let me travel one big round before coming back alright. 

Xmas coming soon :) New year too. I guess we are gonna live until the day we see the existence of year 2103. Meh.

Fuck you philosopher!

Anyway, big question now!

- Should I go for J.Lo Dance Again tour concert? I wouldn't say I am crazy about her, but I did look up to her as a performer. I love a number of her songs. 

- What should I do & whom should I date on weekend b4 Xmas? Too bad that 25th of Dec fall on Tuesday. PT gang unsure of the plan yet. Hmm. I have a preference to go KL town for all the over commercialized Xmas decorations. Perhaps going Singapore might be a different feel altogether. 

How?

- New year resolution? To be lazy in work. To be nasty in person. To be cheap in self-valuation. To be less dreamy & more realistic. Hell to the No!!! So, what?

*Xmas present does come early. Increment was spotted on the payslip today. I'm not sure if it's a lot & I cannot be asking aroud since it can't be treated as a discussion topic. Since it's P&C matter, it could easily turns into debate too. 

Sometimes I feel that the fate does plays a joke on me. 

When I have everything in line, cash to buy ticket & everything necessary, days of freedom to travel but I never has a standby mate for me to hit the road with. 

I'm glad I have friends all over the states. Guess I have to start visiting em one by one alone :)

It's gonna be messy XD but a worthwhile journey. 

Memory

While I was scrolling down my blog, I saw this very warming picture on the left hand side & I pulsed. 

I miss us very much. Of course not forgetting my whole biology team but we 5 were insects linked. So this special bonding has its special care & interest in my heart. 

I think the photo was taken after Thesis submission. It never come across our mind to do the pre graduation photo shooting with our robes. But does the robe matters? I guess it is, but without it, we still looked super fine didn't we? LOL

That smile on my face was something nobody can buy or demand. 

It was so rare now it becomes valuable.

Wee......... 

I'm so happy. I finally wave good bye to the hell week where I worked 8 days continuously to finish off my work so I can have a peace of mind in the coming break. 

Bought my ticket to Penang. Will reach Butterworth on Wed evening. Planned to go back on Sat noon. 

Funny how my roomie ask the priority of my trip is to play or eat or both~

Not in one second that I hesitate to answer it was her and a few more babes being my main reason I come over.

:)

It's gonna be a happy & fattening week. Yesh, fat ba. 

I deserve a good short break. 

I wanna cut my hair 2morrow. You better look smashing hawt to match Jcdagreat.

JCDAGREAT