Holiday ends

Well, I’m glad this holiday didn’t last as long as it was given. MANY thanks to my FYP. Still, I managed to have some BFF time with YokeShan, a sweet small gathering with few my U65 gang, helped my mom in house cleaning and got some Thesis work done. No thanks to the dust surrounding I got myself into, and probably it was my lifestyle that took a toll on me, the allergy strike back. Similar symptoms like the one I faced in first year. I practically cannot breath. Nothing helps ease my problem. Sigh. There were quite a number of misfortunes including that. The lump I found the other day still persists. I will go for another check up and I seriously hope the woman specialist will only deliver a result I wanted to hear. Please… don’t increase the negative elements in my life… I guess I don’t really wanna die young and beautiful.

Knowing what most my friends are going through in their FYP projects, I guess I am having a smooth journey. Seriously, my supervisors are great and my master never failed to guide me the right way. She ensures that I did the right thing and we get along pretty well. I hope my crazy playful attitude did not cause her any discomfort.

Staying with my babes nearby and in the same room was fun. Still, I prefer to sleep alone in a bed. I’m not good in controlling myself sleeping in a bed with limited space. I’m slightly claustrophobic. I scare the feeling of being trapped. And when I am having so much allergy problem, I will be making lotsa noises from the duration on falling asleep to the duration I am asleep. I will snore and the most difficult problem to endure is that you will listen to my pitiful suffering noises. You will be in a very uncomfortable position.

I’m finally back as NewTuner. NT family never fail to impress and with many best buddies are there, fun times never ends. I guess my song will eventually turns into an aca-pella. At first, I have this idea of the song turning into a full band song, jazzy feel with some saxophone and trumpets and whatever la. Ala-ala Vegas performance la….  With lotsa hioaness and bum swinging~

Hmm. “> <  But when I was discussing with Siewin and Kiwi, they thought this song is suitable for acapella. I was like… hey, why not? Having the right amount of people with right arrangement, they can play the similar effects I had on my mind and I can already imagine how it could potentially turns out great. We can add some funny or bizarre effect, we can play with lotsa voice arrangement and some dance or quirky steps. So, I leave the job for you lo, Kiwi. U betta be good! =) And make sure Christine approve ya ~

I don’t think I can have a wild night spend in KL city this Xmas and Newyear. U65 having a Xmas gathering in Seremban on the 26^th of no more changes made. Then, 2^nd of January is my eldest cousin big day. Hmm, inescapable… tho I was really trill with the news. He has been with her girlfriend for a very long time and even lives in the house they bought together already. Marriage is just a formal step they postponed. I’m happy for them.

You… Argh… Jc! Control!! Best fwen nia… maybe not even tim… I like you a lot…. Erm, probably just the attention… So you don’t worry… It will fade and you better pray it would. Or I will make you suffer badly- I swear….

NT JiXUn

Best of luck ya guys... You guys are working hard for the preparation. I'm surprised by the efficiency... LOL. Arrangement for songs are out...ha how bout tat~ geng lo.

Sad that I can't fully be committed being there with u guys till the end of JiXun. 

 C you all very soon =)

N my gals... tho we never were complete as 5 peeps during holiday, my fault I know... but sharing room like this is fun... I can imagine us all 5 being at SauKheng room and terrorize whole KKM... Then her felo come in and shout... XD

KFC really ada sundae de... Cis, you all doubted me. I'm not that blur la...><

Thank Ben =)

Ha, I blah back hometown... 

Im HAPPY CUZ....

HOLIDAY IS OVER!!!

The Miao Family

After Sansit told me yesterday that he finally handed in the Thesis and is officially a free man, I was slightly touched. Having involved in all the Thesis workload, I totally felt the difficulties they were enduring and how much they suffered. We sorta came up with a plan to do a gathering and celebrate. 

I went to bandroom finally to support the Jixun as my lab work was cancelled. A pre-NTLP camping. I didn't confirm myself as a participant cuz I cannot be sure of my time table in laboratory. The bandroom brought back lotsa memories. I saw many new members includes few drummer, new special voices and some old men. XD

I love the environment. But hor, all the time I kena bomb de lo... bully-able huh? Esp itu Evil-moon.

Then as planned, the few K kaki came as planned to the band room before heading out. I thought it would be the perfect place to gather and at the same time, those old seniors can visit the Jixun. Sadly, Siewin and Leng Leng cannot make it. I wish to call upon more... But they have got responsibility there... solute you guys...

Gayao ya~

Singing k with 3 boys... yay~ odies... I love being with seniors sometime... At least I feel young. Singing with music pro guys sounded fun too... We all had fun... lotsa funny moments from 

Mr. Sansit lo... touch my body~ ouch...swt giler man...

thanks ya grandpa miao Sansit, papa miao Sooyung, and koko miao Sam (triple S)

Next time we form complete group k... + twin sis miao Siewin and didi miao Kimleng.

Can I bring another hiao miao Edmund? 

I realised how much this nose allergy caused my singing ability. I dun just have nosy vocal, the biggest concern is that I would not have enough breath I need for some songs... Mid way thru the season, allergy strike, then some spray and it goes away....temporarily. 

It hope it would not affect my bloody good voice (lack techniques) in the future...

Shall fix my nose...respiratory failure..

You noe, if you are allergy to certain food, u can dun eat it

If you're allergy to air, particles or dust in air... can you don't breathe???

I can't carry an oxygen tank around uc...  

LOL

Recently

 This design work sum up my life in UKM... 

 Fashion design is in my blood...

 While about to do closing, inspiration kinda lacking but eventually

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 Tadaa.... this is the second art work as such i produced. The 1st was a gift i did for my U65rians... 

I'm proud of it... It tells story! Whether people see it the way i see it, is okay... I don't define myself. Everything about me do not tell you about the real me. How much people understand me and how much i let em to understand is a different matter altogether. 

Im complex~haha... you think?

 Random pic.... my B eating cakes... how greedy n gelojoh

love u

Feel like writing lotsa, but fatigue has taken control. 

2morrow den~ =)

Freak Days

Ever since I discover a lump in my left breast, I haven’t really been able to be happy.

I am waiting for my period to come so that the chest stiffness would be gone. Then if the lump persisted, I will then go for a proper check up. I hope by then, it wouldn’t be too late. I’m trying not to think of it or be bothered by it as I don’t want to freak myself up. If I am not composed, my mom will freak out then. 

Moreover, the case is not confirmed yet. I am no doctor, so I don’t diagnose myself. I just realise how difficult it would be to tell a man how this thing is going. It’s like “Hey pa, can you take me to the hospital to see the woman specialist?” he would surely asked “Why? Anything wrong?” “Well, because I think I felt a lump in my left breast.” How awkward! I won’t let it happen. I shall just go GH with my mom or with my friend. Sigh. Why is this happening? Why me? Why now? What I did wrong?

Well, enough of self misery. I watched Rapunzel, A Tangled Tale today. It was one of the joy I had in some days. Thanks Yoke Shan. Pascal and Maximus is both such darling to watch. It’s not just any movie. It’s a Disney’s movie!

Today is actually my bro birthday. My family don’t really that kind that celebrate bday or do surprises. I planned to just send him a message but his stupid temper totally put me off. It's ur choice to shut down communication so don’t you blame us for being ignoring. Arrghhhh….

You’re such jerk!

What if the lump is really a benign or cyst but poses no threat? What if it’s cancerous? Can it be just a mistake altogether? Can it? I haven’t really achieved freedom and you are taking away my health? Why must you hate me so much? Am I sinful to not to believe you? Just so that I don’t hate you? I’m trying so hard to be strong… but you keep me drown every time I resurface. I’m so tired….Of all the good deeds I did is never enough to spare me a moment free of misery. 

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And so it turns out I am not at all able to withstand such pressure. I confirm myself at night that I would like to see the doctor in the morning. And I told my dad! He fetched me and my mom to a woman specialist Clinic Sidhu in Seremban. The doctor asked me to come again after period and said that it would probably not dangerous. She asked me not to worry as she believe it's just pre-period form of lumpy. Such huge relieve! I just hope I'm not the rare case. 

Tho I wasn't really bothered by the touching...but I can't get it off my mind that

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I WAS LEGALLED MOLESTED!!!

Haha.... it's not funny...really ><

I was browsing through the photos of the biology family. 

Wow… 2 years and a half had passed. We have come so far dear babes… Those pictures captured our memories, the journey that we have been through and the foundation we have built for our friendships. I was most touched when I clicked into my birthday album. It was a warm evening filled with surprises by all members in bio family. I truly appreciate their affections. 

In the same semester, Pauline, Syndy and Jayne birthday were celebrated. Unfortunately, both Jayne and Syndy Bday fallen on weekend and I was away. I did my part in their lil Slide show and presented them with some choco sweetness the day after. I knew they had fun with housemates which they truly deserved. This pair of sweeties is such darling to many of us. 

I remember me being in so many lil different groups since Year 1 in university. From the KKM gang, I was translocated to the Hi5 group with lil secret only 5 of us know. Once it was exposed, Hi5 group was defunct and bio family was united as one for good when we were in Year 2. Then with the presence of Narimah, we created the Zero Pong! Even non genetic members joined our unity. Together we laughed our heads off with jokes Narimah taught. 

Then after sometime, we slowly broke off the huge unity to work on each other minor groups. The under Narimah’s claw group comprises of MeeTeng, Syndy, Pauline and Jayne. 

The abnormal combination of animal and insect’s group are filled by Lalat SauKheng, Tikus Fang, Ketam LayMei, Labu@ Termite Pumpkin, and me, Wasp JC. 

Then there is another strong Zaba team which includes HuiLee, YiQian, and YinFong. 

Last but not least, the two invisible not quite invincible hunks of biology, Fred and Jason. 

Along the way as we built the foundation for these lil groups, we still managed to be in huge family gathering whenever summoned. I dunno about you guys, I miss everyone. I can’t wait to see us all together again, as a big family.

1st of December… OPM’s birthday.

Keen Hoong as the selected planner for this end year U65 gathering decided to have a celebration for her. He booked me for the whole day. OPM fetched me and we headed to Jusco, the hot spot of Seremban...duh. K rooms were fully booked so we gotta wait until 2pm. There I was introduce to a new fwen called CK and Wayne, JiaYie ‘s boyfriend. The rest were U65 people which includes Jiayie, Peai Mun, Keen Hoong and JienFei. K season was great! My gang said I was singing using the audio… Damn, what a compliment! 

Blush blush~

I finally found a guy who could sing Sam Lee’s songs…. Sweet! I finally hear OPM voice for the 1^st time singing songs. Last time you sang too, but I can never hear voice. =)

 Pretty hor =)

two funny clowns of U65

After K season, we went to Secret Recipe for some sweet treats.  I can’t believe we celebrate bday using just 3 half eaten cakes. Lol. Funny betul la. For dinner, KH, CK, OPM and me went for dinner while the rest went home before resuming the night’s life. Vietnamese’s restaurant called Phoco. Not bad at all. I especially enjoy the Rice Biscuit. Then Justin joined in. The price was not bad and very huge portion of food. 

Then the next spot was at S11 pub located at Era Walk. Cham… I baru second time go pub. Well, the rest was history. I don’t remember how many bucket of Carlsberg they ordered but I did consume at least 3 glasses, or more, plus-minus those half glasses taken away by others. I guess they saw something was wrong with me. By the n-th sip, I got headache. As the wind blows hard and nonstop kuaci biting and more chatting going on, it got worsened. Justin never failed to impress me! I just started crushing a new guy and I thought I like him a lot. Now I don’t think so. Arghh…  LOL

Nobody can deny that like feeling I had on him is still present. I don’t even trust myself if I were to tell myself that it’s over. But, I’m moving forward. I like to miss that old feeling again but at the same time, I have already moved ahead… So, u dun need to be glad only when I found a bf yea… I just love to kacau u and see your damn big eyes sparks with shocks…XD... Sayang u o piggy sweetheart

I’m just happy seeing him and all my friends are fine and happy with their lives now. I’m most happy seeing JiaYie finally found someone to call her own. She is such great gal and she definitely deserves a good guy. Hey Wayne!!! I’m watching you… Don’t bully her ya~