Just to clear leave. Just so happen i had a reason to take leave because it was a celebration day. And a long weekend too.
Coincidently this mooncake festival fall on sept 15 which is also Derrick's bday.
So me n cjx we initiated a bday lunch for him.
As he agreed, we bought him a gift and ate a hearty lunch at La Rosteria cafe at town. It is only fair to ask the bday person and to book ahead for a celebration. Sadly, not everyone would do the same.
We used to have lunch n dinner together like this.
3 of us. Some TGIF and odd dates.
It was a good memory revisit.
Just a simple lunch over carefree mood.
Precious gift and a delicious try out over cakes and coffees.
Sorry cuz i no longer hold a specific position to hold anything fancy to you. I hope you enjoy your day.
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Met up with Ah xin later at 3pm to bring him to the saloon i frequent to. He didnt have a great impression on the lady as she was abit too harsh on his delicate hair. Sorry for the bad recomendation.
We had a late tea time at McD and then went our seperate ways.
As planned, 4 of us inclusive him went to a new furniture n electrical fair at town and it was quite eye opening to me. And among 4, all 3 of us are expecting new house ownership on our way. Thus we had a reason to really shop around for furnitures and electric products.
The night didnt end the way i want it. Why wouldnt we have that night for ourselves? It was a special night and we spent going to furniture fair out of a senior's request.
It was a nice outing but not a happy gathering. I am no longer a crowd person. But was requested to go to the lantern function at MPS field.
I managed to see the fireworks and some huge cartoon lanterns for public photography purpose.
And while the fireworks took place, i saw he was in awe with the sky brightness but he didnt find me. I think he had a memory flashback. Misses his old time? That view it self made me feel sad.
Fuck the mps purposeless strolling.
It was just me against them. I was the only one who didnt want to go and eventhough eventually both who has no say to this idea finally trying to convince the strong headed senior that we have no parking and perhaps we should scrapped the idea, we still carried on with it to his favour. To his satisfaction. I bloody hope he is happy. Because his satisfaction was traded with my unsatisfaction.
My jealousy hit me over and over this week.
As my pms washes away through period now, my hatred got subsides but it doesnt mean i can completely ignore what is happening and what i cant completely understand.
Full circle. If karma is a bitch, it has came full circle and im done. Thank you for your lessons.
I think it is time for me to graduate from stupidity and move on.
This is not my favourite subject.
I cannot understand your lesson and im failing.
Help me understand. Im so perplexed.
I have questioned and hinted many times about certainty but i was not given an answer.
I wonder if i was kind enough to give him an escape room with all the non too direct hints or that the escape room from embarrasement was actually meant for me.
Im very dissapointed in us.
Of all the good and the little sparks that we had over the 9 months i cant bring my heart to fully believe what i had believed in.
And the fact that the other lady has mistook your kindness as courtship, i might had as well mistook your kindness as courtship.
So embarrassing.
Im so shameful.
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