1st Round ATQ Audition

The day that I have been waited for 11 years

Sounds crappy right? Why would anyone wanna wait anything for 11 years?

Maybe somebody else could but for a Leo gal like me, one extra day seems like forever

Imagine waited 11 years for that... Can you feel how desperate I am to score that one chance?

So that was how the humiliation started  > <

 My tune mates :)

Me Amor

 

I reached TimeSq around 8 sumthg on Saturday while they were already there waiting for me. I had a bad feeling about the day since thursday when I was having accommodation problem. Things were pretty messed up and I was having difficulty deciding where to stay, how to go from place to place and many other related stuff. I didn't allocate any free time to really get myself prepared for the so-called big day. Eventually I chose to stay with MeeTeng @Bukit Jalil. Deary TMT :)

Jiayie came to support me :) I love you dear... Look at my shitty bad tired face.... Shud have guessed it wasn't a good sign. 

I thought I have done enough to face for judgment... Self comforting~ Well, I screwed up badly. 

I'm pretty sure it will goes up on TV la...cuz it was freaking bad!

I mistakenly sang the wrong lyric, got freaked out, forgot lyric with I supposed very funny expression on my face, then by the time I wanna hit the chorus, they stopped me indicating 30 sec has gone and they thanked me to shut me up. Fuck! Fuck! I screwed the hell up in front of Yuen Wei Ren!!! 

Guess Mercy wasn't the right song at the wrong time.

Friends said I was put too much pressure on myself, You wanted it too badly to prove...

I was trying so hard to find a corner to hide my thick face & cry the hell out... but I guess my friends wouldn't allow me. They kept me around so I wouldn't be alone... I actually need that period of time-to really delved into the matter, be extremely emo about it, and when I'm ready, I will go seek for comfort.

The fact that my fwens was selected into pending list and I am not, it was harded for me to control myself not to be much bothered by the result which will effect their celebration mood than them needed to control their happiness to make me feel better. Do u get my sentence? Hmm... draggy yet pointless huh? Sigh.

Puiyan & her laughter 

Ah Fai then drove us to Bandroom where he practiced for that night performance at Station One. Met some juniors and spent a quality times with my babe Siewin... Sinux then took over and brought us to Fusion Heven which I demanded. :) Thanks sweetie.

I tried my very best to hide my emoness.... and try to relax as much as possible cuz I noe I needa pia for tomorrow... The thought of going thru the same damn routine really kills me.... but I have no choice. I have no choice!!! If I didn't fix the shit I have done, the rest of the days and the months through the year will be miserable. 

Went back to MeeTeng place with Siewin...

A dreamless night~