I did not dislike Monday. I fear it. Every night I will try to do some reading as in the nights before every examination. I feel anxious. Nobody expect anything from me except he boss. Even he knew it would be hard for me for at least a few months. The blurness~ In fact, if u're too smart, you threatened the seniors. I don't know where the pressure come from. 80% should be from me la. I don't like to make a fool out of myself. Yea, blame the self-consciousness disease. I still have it...=( I don't like to look stupid. So, I tried to soak everything in fast but it's tough. Switching field is not as easy as I thought. 

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