U noe....it's easier to change oneself mindset than to change someone elses.... i really dont understand how insensitive one can be about other peoples feeling when she can be so overly sensitive with others stuffs....ironically, this is life. While other people are trying to be very sensibly understand u, motivate and guide u back to the right mindset, there u are shutting down urself, keeping all the crappy memories and living in negativities, and never fail to make ur life miserable, every elses too. You noe, if u r in pain, the one that care most for you feel far worst than u can ever think of. i hate being sensible.... i hate it when i can be so bothered caring about your well being and there you go keep doing the things that hurt u and me....no matter how willing am i to reach out for you, i will get tired too... i feel worn down, i feel exhousted, i feel meaningless...mind you, i'm just a human...i'm no GOD.Trying to make you feel better might be my selfishness for not letting you n negativities interupting my life.... but is this selfishness too much to ask for? Couldnt you let me live happily? Or do u even noe that i'm not at all please with it? My soft and slow way do not works most of the times, so you enjoy being scold? You enjoy the hard way? Then you get angry with those who scolded you in a horrible way when what he said are rights in certain ways.... i seriously do not noe how to fix you.... maybe i shouldnt... i myself need to get a life and should start to bother less.... so my heart dont ache too much for seeing you in such way as it reminds me how hopeless i am... i suddenly realise how my frenship with my bff got worsen... cuz she is becoming like you.... i knew u lead a horrible life, i noe u are very much in hatred, i noe is pityful to be you but that could not be the reason for you to keep living in the past... im seriously tired.... my patient is wearing out.... maybe, too much of tolerance is a mistake after all...

if there is the mighty god watching over us, i will no longer have faith in you,

if there is an angel keeping us safe and sound, i will never wish for your existence,

and if there is eternal happiness, sorry...i will hunger no more for you,

if there is really dreams come true, then i guess i should never long for it, no more....

for when i needed you the most, you just never be there for me....

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those who read this, yes, i am very EMO right now... dun bother me much cuz i'll be fine.... no worry k...

no advises, no question

but i could use a lil comfort tho...

LOL