Pride & prejudice and zombies...

The boy said it was too much talking and not much action.

He doesnt like it. The movie. 

But i was asked to watch with me bff.

So i didnt have much expectation to the movie.

When i enter the hall, i had a very eerie feeling cuz it was only 2 of us. And the hall dimmed just right away. Only after 5 min, few more others came.

God. Spooky shit.

Then the male lead role came into the picture. He was named Mr Darcy. I recognised that face. Very familiar. A face that i like. He acted in maleficent. Gosh. So effing charming. 

And the leading lady. Elizabeth... pretty and tough. A character in woman that i like. Im pretty much that type except that im still very much emotional. 

Mr Darcy said a few things that i really got me hooked. But pretty much what he said makes a lot of sense. He show off too much of vocabulary mastership and that was how his prestige presence was highlighted. I adore his shyness. His fight with own demon to love the woman which his senses thought it was the wrong choice. 

Him giving in and acknowledge his love despite not knowing how the lady thought of him. His bravery to declare his love. His sincerity and persistence to clarify misunderstanding with the one he care and wishing that she would understand and choose to believe him even though it might not be fruitful. 

His sacrifice and what he would do to protect his lady from harm. 

Gosh. What is there not to love?

Among all the weapon there is in the world.

Love is the strongest of them all. 

I was in the middle (of falling in love) before i even started.

I found their conversation and dialogue very artistry... classic and classy english. 

Inspiring le... 

Not bad a movie. 

For a special 29th night.

***

A spoonful of sugar, a spoonful of shit.
All of you do the same.
When will one of you stop doing this?

Saw things that i dont wanna face today.
Everyday.
Today specifically odd and random and im just
hmmp...

Bothered.

Help me.
Help me.

27th of Feb

Mr Charming ??

Close.

:)

Odd start. But every time i see you i forgot the rest.

I forgot my self consciousness let alone anger or my pms. 

I dont know what you have in you.

You calm me almost immediately.

This i wont let you know. 

Cuz you already knew. 

Capricorn is someone with good confidence, sensible and practical. 

Be me. That's the only thing i need to do

and what you ask of. 

Im trying to be more open. 

As i always say, i dont intend to be difficult,

It takes the right person to figure it all out. 

If you cant, dont bother. 

If you will, care and dare, you are most treasured.

Shameless selfie

They say if you take care of some thing,

It will blossom.

I dont know what i have in me.

I dont know what you see in me.

But i do know that she and i have a few similarities.

Coincidence? I realized that men tend to have specific preference on women's trait. And it's obvious in both their old n new flames. 

This doesnt apply to women though. 1st, most of my gf have stable relationship with their 1st bf. Those who have exes, their current favourite has nothing similar to their past's. 

Same goes to my past crushes. Nothing similar.

Nothing physically though. 

But all of them share the same traits that i like...

Kindness, soft spoken, talented/passionate and that all oozes charms. 

The last time I play bowling & arcade game

was very long time ago. I cant remember when.

 But very paiseh. Cuz i dont know how i would react to the games and this uncertainty make me feel unsure.... Embarrassing kan? Sorry.

I guess it doesnt matter kot. A lof of fun!

 Lets do it again!

Next round is on me. Dont argue yea.

Cuz i didnt argue with you on that very fine day.

Thanks for the pampering :)

X biasa. Should i get used to it?

Some quotes that speaks to me:

I remember i asked Joanne how do i tell if that person means to me. How do i tell that i have make my choice?

She asked me a question.

When you saw the belated vday flower delivery, who did you wish it was from?

And i knew i had an answer to that.

***

Anyway...

Let time do its wonder.

God of Egypt didnt sucks because my movie date did not.

Gosh. I hope you dont read me.

So damn cheesy.

*blush*

*blush*

I wanna seek for assurance.

Pls dont deceive me.

***

Why Cant We Be Like That by Little Mix feat. Jason Derulo

When you hold me in the street
And you kiss me on the dance floor
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough
It's obvious you're meant for me
Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly
Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep
But I'll never show it on my face

But we know this, we got a love that is homeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

[Jason Derulo:]
When you're with him, do you call his name
Like you do when you're with me? Does it feel the same?
Would you leave if I was ready to settle down?
Or would you play it safe and stay?

Girl you know this, we got a love that is hopeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

And nobody knows I'm in love with someone's baby
I don't wanna hide us away
Tell the world about the love we're making
I'm living for that day
Someday
Why can't I hold you in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that we could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours

Oh, why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

Why can't we be like that?

***

:'( 

The moment i heard this song i fell for it. 
I dont know if it was the beat, the voice or the it leona lewis/mariah thing on 'why cant we /be/ like this?'. I was hooked and i wanted to download it immediately. 

After reading the lyrics i found a solid a reason on why i fell for it. A song for the moment. The right time. By the way, those women voices are so strong. 

I thk i can belt it out as well too at K room.
Im jamming this song non stop now while expressing myself here.

A song for the past.
Lyricly it fits right where it aches.
The denial.

Perhaps i should put it this way.
I gave up. I move on.

Held your head up high girl.
It wasnt a mistake.
Its okay.

#stupid #pms
#whathehellwrongwitme

That beauty

That charisma

That painstaking wonderlust

That past tense.

*

They say eyes are the window to the soul.
Could they tell stories?
Present or history?

*

Too similar yet so different

*

Was thinking to myself that for the past one year i have been single but not available.

preservation
reservation
patience
loyalty
perception
persistence
believe
wanting

After being unleashed by my incredulous strong will power, the detachment feels incredible.

Well... when the mood is right.

Back to square one.

***

Y do i feel like im doing something wrong?
I think the once recovered extreme consciousness is coming to haunt me.
I know i have the best intention.
I know i did the right things.
I never do anything wrong intentionally... i guess.
If you catch me doing it, you are best to alert me cuz high chances is that i have no idea what i was doing and it was a mistake.

I think i shall just remain silence for a long good time. The more i do the more it seems wrong.
I need time to figure out the necessities again.

Need to increase the level of ignorance.
The one who wish to know will ask or if he wont ask, then it aint a matter to begin with.
Those who doubt will continue to doubt even though i have the best explanation.
Those who care will find his way to know.

Ok. My pms is killing me.
The stupid wind is blowing hard got my hair messed up while i sat here blogging my dissatisfaction.

LOL... Silly but i kinda enjoy this lonesomeness.
Me surrounded by all shitty people but i still have utter privacy to myself. Blogging like no body business.

Arghhhhhh...

Shhhhh.....

I need emotional shut down.
Until further notice.

Chap Goh Mei

I found my self loving Justin Bieber's songs..
Esp the recent Sorry and Love yourself.
If you can see beyond his craze recently with stupid hairdo and attitude and his never tall enough for a man his age n genes... he sing some nice songs. Some songs are nice to fit in in certain mood.

So chap goh mei... the epoh mali/pulau ketam kakis decided to watch a cny movie. At the same day, my branch decided to organize a branch cny dinner as well as bday celebration for jan n feb babies.
And everyone gotta wear red. Dammit red.
After movie we went mamak.
How carefree... it is good to have a new found group of friends who can really talk nonsense and forget the world for a while.
Cjx plan to get the matching couple together works quite well :) Hi 5 gal.

I gained back weight. Stupid cny. Stupid stress.

Yesterday (19/2) evening i was abit startlet to find 2 beautiful big stray dogs (i was told the dogs are twins) follow a 90 yrs old aunty when she came down from my car after i sent her home. 

They were so happy to see her and i was told that they follow her everywhere as body guards. As early as 6am morning walk to 9pm companions whenever she is out of the house. 

That reminded me of my baby whenever he sees me home. 
That reminded me that kindness exists which often repays by loyalty.
That reminded me that if u take care of sumthg they turn into sumthg beautiful and more.

They turn into sumthing beautiful and more. 
That applies to human too.

*

An odd Saturday.
I wanted to stay at home.
But i wanted to go out too.
I dont wish to be at home but i wanna feel homey.

I need to find the heart. Home is where the heart is.
So i asked Joanne out. She somehow is always available for me. All times. Is like her availability can sense that i need her.
I wanted to see the lighting and fireworks at City Park, a function organized by IJM at S2.

But i hate the crowd and the alarmingly crazy loads of human potentially rubbing shoulders with me with all sweats and odours. You have no idea how disturbing that idea is that to me. Still both jo and i tried our luck going to city park perhaps to lepak at kfc and see from a far. But the parking pattern and the number of cars spotted were freaking us out. She patiently giving a few shot to find parking and after going a few rounds, both of us finally gave up. Haha...

So we end up going to Jusco, her dinner at kfc, my heavenly indulgence of Sangkaya ice cream and we went for a movie The Mermaid. A movie i have zero expectation but it turns out great. Just like everyone's comment about it. Its message about protecting marine ecosystem and loving aquatic animals really hit me in the heart. FYI, im a bio student. Im glad Stephan Chow use this approach to bring out awareness. I solute his kindness. And gosh... i love the main actor Deng Chao!!!

Joanne, she is special. Its like im talking with a mirror. The only different is that this joanne will talk back and we laugh in different tone. Hahahaha...

So alike. So in sync.
What is wrong wit u? Wit me? With us?
Our history goes way back then. Form 2?
You are one of the few things high school gave to me that i appreciate. The rest for me were just blurry and nonsense.

Next time dont scream in the cinema hall ok?

***

When i start to care about someone
I will start to give in a lot.
Im sorry that it was another 3am chatting.
U r so sleep deprived.
Change for the better is definitely a good thing.
As long as you are comfortable.
You are adored the way you are.

Im happy we have our lil ok...
#thefaultinourstars