It's not easy to change someone's attitude!!!

Y trying?? Good question~ to whoever bother to ask

Cuz that negativity of yours is sucking all the patience I have

Do not go around pissing people off with your misery you imposed on yourself. 

In the corner of my heart, the indeed selfish me was hoping that

I could change you so I won't be bothered by your problems

You just don't understand

Ur happiness is My happiness

I put you above everything else or so I thought 

Do you ever appreciate my effort?

Or I simply don't understand?

It's not easy you know that. 

You don't had it easy and so did I

I'm tired but yet I can't let go

A black spot in life I can't escape

Stained and rusted 

I paralyzed all senses hoping that I could fake a fantasy

Thinking probably I could run away from reality

by ignoring

No, even a hard down pour of tears can cure this disease

It's deadly, Im half broken

I won't giv up fighting

It's destined maybe but imma prove to you 

U ain't winning 

U choose the wrong Eva to play with

Im such a BITCH Imma fuck you hard for such crappy path you bless me with

You just designed a weapon to kill

& 

Eventually, I might just thank you for not loving me

for I learn how to love others 

Ha, Im feeling much better =)

Pls knock me out cuz i need to pay my sleep debt